Someone asked me what
LOVE felt like for me towards my baby boy and this is how I feel.
Its PRIDE - that he is
mine, I share him with my husband, he is so amazing and WE made him together.
Its HAPPINESS - that fills every crevice of my body each time he smiles, does
something new, holds his hands to me to bed picked up, cuddles me, kisses my
cheek (well eats my cheek), when he sneezes and thinks its funny.
It's AWE - that I grew him and now he is growing on his own.
Its PAIN - when he cries out for me, when he hurts himself, when hes sick and I
cant help him, when I see him try to grab the computer screen skyping dad but
he cant have that cuddle he wants (this made me sad)
Its SADNESS - knowing I wont always be able to give him what he wants and
needs.
Its PRIDE - that I accomplished the one thing Ive always wanted with the person
who is my best friend, that he is mine, everytime I get a comment on a photo of
MY boy or a comment in public.
Its FEAR - that something could happen to him, that he may utter the words
"I hate you mum" as a teenager, I could go on with this one.
Its ANGER - that someone else may hurt my lil boy one day or pick on him.
BUT most of all it's total and utter wanting and happiness to do and give MY
boy the best I can give him because I chose to bring him here. I want
nothing more than to make him happy, because he makes me the happiest person in
the world.
He puts me up on a pedestal, he brings me more than ANY other person
could, he makes me so happy I could melt, crack and become numb just by being
in his presence.
My heart could break in
an instant or be overcome with such happiness that I get tingles. I would do
anything for you, will always be here for you and that my son is only the start
of my feeling towards you xx
LOVE......It really isn't just one simple emotion, it is an amazing feeling when you feel true LOVE. Even more so when you feel it because of someone you grew inside you and brought into this world.
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